I remember a little over 4 years ago scrolling through some of my favorite teacher’s blogs such as, Gabby Bernstein and Marianne Williamson, wondering how in the world I would ever get ‘there’. There was nothing in the universe I desired more than to live with a open heart and to be a teacher of love (Throughout my site I will refer to my higher power as Love, Source, Creator God, Goddess, Spirit, HP, Divine, Beloved. You can fill in the blank with whatever resonates with you the most) The only ‘problem’ was that I did not believe that I was loved, loving, or lovable for as long as I could remember.
I grew up trying to squeeze into a box that I never quite fit in, until I found my ‘dumb rebel bad-bitch’ identity. This one seemed to fit like Cinderella’s glass slipper. I became highly promiscuous in 5th grade, started drinking in 8th grade, and was an alcoholic by my freshman year of high school. I thought that being dumb was cool and being soulful was embarrassing. My dream was to become an infamous playboy model. By age 18, I became a stripper to live up to the patriarchal vision of what it looked like to be a ‘worthy woman’. From the ages of 18-24 I drank just about every single night. From the outside it looked like I was living a glamorous life according to the American dream, but inside I was dead as could be.
In 2013 I cried out to the Universe that I needed help and serendipitously the book ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Byrne fell into my lap. From that moment on everything in my life began to shift. In 2014 I had a spiritual awakening at Burning Man. I became willing to surrender my entire life over to a higher power so that I could live to my potential. On May 9, 2015 I officially got sober. Through my process of awakening I have realized that nothing lights a fire in my soul more than believing in the unlimited human potential, which is really the potential of the heart, the potential of one’s love of Source.
I know that if I could become who I am today, then EVERYTHING and ANYTHING is possible! The only reason I am here writing this today is because I fell madly in love with my Creator. I prayed for the Universe’s dreams to be dreamed through me, and today I am living a life beyond what I could have ever imagined in my wildest dreams.
I believe that radical self-love comes from falling in love with a power greater than ourselves. I believe that this power that is in us, but not of us, teaches how to discover our inner radiance and beauty. I believe that true beauty is found from shifting into spirit identification.
I am here to help women uncover radical self-love and their inner beauty. I guide women to surrender to a higher -power, so that it can do through them would they can not do by themselves. A Course In Miracles states that ‘we get what we give’, and there is no greater gift I could receive than to witness you remember who you are in truth- to remember how gorgeous you truly are.
4 years ago, when I was dreaming about becoming a teacher like Gabby Bernstein, Wayne Dyer, or Marianne Williamson, I did not realize that the one person in front of me was the golden key to my higher power. I did not realize that the one person in front of me was the big great ‘there’ that I was desiring to get to. Today I am so blessed to remember this.
You, gorgeous, are my ‘there’. There is no one in the world that is more important to me than YOU! I genuinely care about you, I love you, and I honor you- for you are my soul sister. We are one and I understand you like no other! I wish with my entire heart and soul to be able to connect with you more deeply.